Choose or Lose

"Before I begin, let me state that this in not a poem. This is a collection of thoughts put together by a man who is guilty of active passivism. By this I mean that he, I, has been incapable of, or unwilling to do what needed/needs to be done. He has thoroughly mulled over the tasks at hand and has decided upon the route he must take, however, he fails to execute, time and time again. He allows things to happen instead of making things happen. He takes a seat when he should stand and forces himself to feign indifference.”

I wrote those lines during a very tumultuous time in my life. Don't get the wrong idea, I wasn't going through any family issues, my grades weren't slipping, I wasn't about to practice my Icarus impression on the Chapel tower (step you're Greek mythology game up). I just found myself (by some fault of my own) in a very difficult position, which, if handled incorrectly, would prove to be extremely volatile. Although I won't go into any details about the situation, I will say that it was a result of and perpetuated by my own inability to choose.

I have always considered myself to be a strong person (in mind, heart and body), but never before have I felt so utterly powerless over a situation. I convinced myself that there was absolutely nothing that I could possibly do to tactfully remedy the situation, when the truth of the matter was that I could fix it. I realized that I was trying my best to allow time to work its magic and alleviate all my problems, but the thing is, although time heals wounds, it also gives them ample opportunity to fester (pardon the image). I was forced to cast aside my fear of the repercussions and consequences, turn off the autopilot and direct my own course.

Thank God I did.

Jay-Z once said, "I drove past the fork in the road, and went straight." Hov may be able to walk through walls (no blasphemy), but I had to go right, because I didn't want to get left.
*acknowledges cornyness of last 13 words*
*Does Dave Chappelle's rendition of the Harlem Shake*
*Pats self on back*
*Publishes Post*

lol.

As always,

Pax, Amor et Musica